note to self

i haven´t written here in a loooong time, but i´ve actually been elaborating something to write in the last days. So today i took a walk and while making a lot of huuuuge discoveries, i wrote down a few that i´ll try to explain now to my self, and to those who´ll happen to read this.

I don´t remember how bu i came to the conclusion, some days ago, that especially in concept art, the most important part of the process is the one where you sit down and think about what it is that you´re about to draw. I´v actually always thought so, but i´ve never done it. What i mean is that drawing in concept art, is only a way to communicate an idea to other, ou can do it by words as well, but since the result will be showed as images, at some point in the process someone had to convert the "most awesome idea in the world" into something graphic.
I´ve come to realize that my concerns when drawing were mostly restricted to how i was doing it, and not so much about what i was doing. Of course, especially in concept art, i believe the whole point is that you know what you are doing, otherwise you don´t even have a reason to start.
I´ve lways thought it muh easier to draw for someone else, than for my self. If someone asks me to draw a concept for him/her, i think it´s challenging, interesting, fun, easy, inspiring and any other positive feelings. But when it comes to doing something for myself, i always get frustrated, out of ideas, bored, and all the negative feelings. =)
Another thing that relates to this is my being unable to look at my drawings and get inspired by them. I see people looking at my worst scribbles, (the ones i would scribble on to avoid anyone seeing there was a drawing there. Like scribbles on a word that is spelled uncorrectly =) ) This is quite interesting and i think it depends by my looking at my drawing not for what they are, but or what i wish they where (masterpieces). I think getting inspired by one´s own art is one of the most difficult things, as one needs to be in peace and in harmony with what one is doing, and that means that one has to know what one i doing, and accept it as perfect.

to wrap it up, i see now the next step to take in my journey to have fun with art and get paid for it =)

1. i think about what i will draw and draw to illustrate my ideas.

2. i think about the steps needed to visualize the thing i have in mind and then draw it.

3. i think about what i´m drawing

4. i am inspired by my own drawings

5. i draw perfectly and i enjoy it

environments and a face

environments

ref
ref + min
mind


i have a hard time with environments, both cause i can´t really immagine something interesting to begin with.... and second cause i find it hard to see basic shapes in mountains, especially if there are bushes or trees....guess i´ll have to do more studies from references....
don´t have much ideas in mind to write now, so i´ll just draw more and think after that i guess... =)

let´s get it on

so, this week as i promised to myself, i did all th sketches! yay
let´s get this hing rolling again =)

i still have some kind of insecutiry when drawing and painting, sometimes i´m afrai to start, sometimes i´m afraid to continue and just trash the drawing.
I think especially in the second case, that it is due to a lack of commitment to the sketch, and if it doesn´t look great in the first 10 minutes then i don´t really bother continuing and correcting it.
in the first case i think i just have the wrong id on why i´m draing.
I usually start to test techniques and methods to get the work down, without having an actual idea of what i´m going to draw..i´m just thinking of how to draw it. So i start empty headed and it becomes just a blob of lines...

so the next step, is having something in mind to draw and then commit to it! yay

It was a while since i came here and updated hehe
it´s quite crazy here in my mind right now, lots of things jumping and running in my head, and in the meanwhile i´m trying to set up a portfolio both to get a job and to get into an art school.
I´m really interested in highschool in gotland (sweden), they have different game educations, and it looks like a lovely place to be =)

i´m trying to get the hang out of 3d modeling aswell =) modeling it´s ok, texturing is what i struggle the most =) eheheh
i´ve always had a hard time with it, and i´m starting to think that it has something to do with my inner self, eheheh maybe i have to change my-self in order to be able to properly texture a 3d character...=) it actually make quite sense to me...and i´ll try that asap =p

i´m gonna start to get 3 drawing done every week...this time fore real!!! yeah!!!